Has anyone else noticed how many new blogs authored by female scientists cropped up in the latter part of 2007? It probably partly reflects the growing general popularity of blogs, but may also indicate the necessity and appeal of a community like this.
I had been reading blogs for over a year before I started my own. The many blog conversations have helped me understand the expectations of and by scientists (who are women) in a way I don’t think I would have in any other forum because no other forum is quite so candid. Moreover, having a safe outlet for my thoughts and feelings has helped me to clarify what I think I want from my career at a time when I can still somewhat comfortably adjust my trajectory.
I hope that the addition of more women STEM bloggers in the coming year will contribute to our success in our careers. It’s uplifting and comforting to know that other women are out there dealing with the same issues. It also helps to know that they aren’t all of super human composition, i.e., that they aren’t so different from (or better than) me after all (note that in real life, people try to hide their weaknesses, while a blogger will write every damn problem she has).
Since I don’t regularly work at a university, I sometimes feel a little disconnected from other students and academic life. It has been really nice to expand my world a little and learn what this gig is like for others – those in other countries, fields, institutions, whatever. It has also helped put many issues in perspective. We all deal with the same problems. Moreover, it’s nice to open up to others in an unreserved way. It’s so difficult to do that in real life because it makes one feel too vulnerable.
So, as silly as it may be to salute one's e-social network, here’s to a fantastic 2008 for all my blog friends: to those who consider me a friend too, to those who don’t know they have me as a fan, and to those I’ve yet to meet!
Edited to add: I love all the non-scientist, non-female bloggers too! I didn't mean to be exclusive! It's just that I wrote this post with the Scientiae carnival in mind.
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Monday, December 31, 2007
Saturday, December 29, 2007
Is she hot?
When someone tells me about a new person, like a new coworker or a friend they want to introduce me to, usually I ask "is she cool?" Now, I know that this may not be the most important quality in a person, but it is usually what I want to know first. I should probably ask "is she competent?" about a new coworker or "is she nice/trustworthy/honest?" about a new friend.
Even worse that "is she cool?" is "is she hot?" It really ticks me off how so many men in my life ask "is she hot?" about a new person. Even Ecogeoman does it sometimes! I'll describe how a potential grad student visited the lab and he'll ask, is she hot? It's doesn't f'ing matter! Why do men do this?
When asked about someone's irrelevant hotness, I, of course, rant on about how this is a rude and sexist thing to ask and that it doesn't matter anyway, but it never gets me anywhere. I know that Ecogeoman doesn't really treat people differently based on their looks (at least consciously), and I know that he asks that just to get me worked up, but I HATE it.
This topic is on my mind because the very worst abuser of "is she hot" is visiting us this week, a friend who always mentions a person's looks when saying anything about him/her (to be fair, I think it's mostly joking, but still). We went out last night and bickered the whole time about "is she hot". I admit that hotness counts for some things, and that hot people probably are treated better in general, but it just shouldn't be the first thing we want to know about a person.
Even worse that "is she cool?" is "is she hot?" It really ticks me off how so many men in my life ask "is she hot?" about a new person. Even Ecogeoman does it sometimes! I'll describe how a potential grad student visited the lab and he'll ask, is she hot? It's doesn't f'ing matter! Why do men do this?
When asked about someone's irrelevant hotness, I, of course, rant on about how this is a rude and sexist thing to ask and that it doesn't matter anyway, but it never gets me anywhere. I know that Ecogeoman doesn't really treat people differently based on their looks (at least consciously), and I know that he asks that just to get me worked up, but I HATE it.
This topic is on my mind because the very worst abuser of "is she hot" is visiting us this week, a friend who always mentions a person's looks when saying anything about him/her (to be fair, I think it's mostly joking, but still). We went out last night and bickered the whole time about "is she hot". I admit that hotness counts for some things, and that hot people probably are treated better in general, but it just shouldn't be the first thing we want to know about a person.
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Friday, December 28, 2007
End of the year meme
CAE at VWXYNot tagged me for this meme.
1. Will you be looking for a new job?
Not really. Although if things go well, maybe toward the end of the year I will be ready to start looking for post docs that have a mid-to-late '09 start date.
2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
I'm always looking for new friends, especially women.
3. New house?
no
4. What will you do differently in 08?
I will try to procrastinate less.
5. New Years resolution?
This will get a whole post of its own. There will be resolutions about efficiency, money, and work goals.
6. What will you not be doing in 08?
graduating.
7. Any trips planned?
To Far Off Land in July and to France in September.
8. Wedding plans?
Ecogeoman's BFF's wedding in July and his sister's in September. Hence the trips.
9. Major thing on your calendar?
those trips.
10. What can’t you wait for?
To finish something. I'm hoping to submit at least one manuscript this year.
11. What would you like to see happen differently?
My work habits -- not always emphasizing data collection over writing, and getting more done.
12. What about yourself will you be changing?
Nothing really about myself, but I'd like to make my behavior more effective.
13. What happened in 07 that you didn’t think would ever happen?
I started this blog.
14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
I'll try to gossip less. Gossip isn't very nice.
15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 07?
no.
16. Will you start or quit drinking?
no.
17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
well, I hope it's always evolving and maturing, but no plans to do anything dramatic.
18. Will you do charity work?
um, probably not. I should though. I'd like to tudor GED students or something. someday.
19. Will you go to bars?
yes. Especially since my state is going smoke free on January 1.
20. Will you be nice to people you don’t know?
I'll try. I always try.
21. Do you expect 08 to be a good year for you?
yes. I expect to get things done!
22. How much did you change from this time last year till now?
I think I became more effecient in work and money management. I hope to continue to become more so.
23. Do you plan on having a child?
not in 2008.
24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
I think so. Some relationships seem to be waning, but others might blossom.
25. Major lifestyle changes?
none planned.
26. Will you be moving?
no.
27. What will you make sure doesn’t happen in 08 that happened in 07?
Failure to submit a paper.
28. What are your New Years Eve plans?
An intimate party at a friend's place.
29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
Ecogeoman. :)
30. One wish for 08?
To get a paper published.
I tag (gosh, I hate tagging. But I love being tagged. Too bad you can't have one without the other.)
Ianqui
Jane
Sciencegirl
Sciencewoman
Unbalanced Reaction
1. Will you be looking for a new job?
Not really. Although if things go well, maybe toward the end of the year I will be ready to start looking for post docs that have a mid-to-late '09 start date.
2. Will you be looking for a new relationship?
I'm always looking for new friends, especially women.
3. New house?
no
4. What will you do differently in 08?
I will try to procrastinate less.
5. New Years resolution?
This will get a whole post of its own. There will be resolutions about efficiency, money, and work goals.
6. What will you not be doing in 08?
graduating.
7. Any trips planned?
To Far Off Land in July and to France in September.
8. Wedding plans?
Ecogeoman's BFF's wedding in July and his sister's in September. Hence the trips.
9. Major thing on your calendar?
those trips.
10. What can’t you wait for?
To finish something. I'm hoping to submit at least one manuscript this year.
11. What would you like to see happen differently?
My work habits -- not always emphasizing data collection over writing, and getting more done.
12. What about yourself will you be changing?
Nothing really about myself, but I'd like to make my behavior more effective.
13. What happened in 07 that you didn’t think would ever happen?
I started this blog.
14. Will you be nicer to the people you care about?
I'll try to gossip less. Gossip isn't very nice.
15. Will you dress differently this year than you did in 07?
no.
16. Will you start or quit drinking?
no.
17. Will you better your relationship with your family?
well, I hope it's always evolving and maturing, but no plans to do anything dramatic.
18. Will you do charity work?
um, probably not. I should though. I'd like to tudor GED students or something. someday.
19. Will you go to bars?
yes. Especially since my state is going smoke free on January 1.
20. Will you be nice to people you don’t know?
I'll try. I always try.
21. Do you expect 08 to be a good year for you?
yes. I expect to get things done!
22. How much did you change from this time last year till now?
I think I became more effecient in work and money management. I hope to continue to become more so.
23. Do you plan on having a child?
not in 2008.
24. Will you still be friends with the same people you are friends with now?
I think so. Some relationships seem to be waning, but others might blossom.
25. Major lifestyle changes?
none planned.
26. Will you be moving?
no.
27. What will you make sure doesn’t happen in 08 that happened in 07?
Failure to submit a paper.
28. What are your New Years Eve plans?
An intimate party at a friend's place.
29. Will you have someone to kiss at midnight?
Ecogeoman. :)
30. One wish for 08?
To get a paper published.
I tag (gosh, I hate tagging. But I love being tagged. Too bad you can't have one without the other.)
Ianqui
Jane
Sciencegirl
Sciencewoman
Unbalanced Reaction
Best. Christmas. Gift. Ever.
I'm back from Christmas in my hometown, another city in the Midwest. After the intense-but-fun time at my parents' house with not-private Internet (i.e., no blogging) I'm happy to be back at home sitting in my new flannel pajamas, drinking coffee and catching up on zillions of blog posts. The rest of the day will be spent cleaning out closets. Ecogeoman and I both got new clothes via gifts and sales. We have little clothing storage space, so I need to get rid of some stuff.
In addition to clothes, we received other very nice presents, like an awesome camp stove from S1, who had drawn our names this year. This is great because I didn't have any camping gear until recently and most of Ecogeoman's stuff is the ultra small, lightweight kind meant for backpacking, not the car camping we do now. I got an immersion blender and a vegetarian crock pot cookbook, a thoughtful gift from my mom after last year's new crock pot. Ecogeoman gave me the book, Women Don't Ask by Babcock and Laschever which I've been wanting forever (I'm sure I'll blog about it). But the Best Gift Ever was a surprise. After we had opened all the presents, Ecogeoman handed me a note that said "you get dance lessons of your choice." I spazed. You see, although I have never had a dance class and have no rhythm, I dance around the house all the time and I LOVE the dancing shows that are currently popular on network tv. I'm hoping I can convince Ecogeoman to take ballroom with me, instead of me taking something like ballet or hip hop by myself (even though that would be great too).
I am so excited.
In addition to clothes, we received other very nice presents, like an awesome camp stove from S1, who had drawn our names this year. This is great because I didn't have any camping gear until recently and most of Ecogeoman's stuff is the ultra small, lightweight kind meant for backpacking, not the car camping we do now. I got an immersion blender and a vegetarian crock pot cookbook, a thoughtful gift from my mom after last year's new crock pot. Ecogeoman gave me the book, Women Don't Ask by Babcock and Laschever which I've been wanting forever (I'm sure I'll blog about it). But the Best Gift Ever was a surprise. After we had opened all the presents, Ecogeoman handed me a note that said "you get dance lessons of your choice." I spazed. You see, although I have never had a dance class and have no rhythm, I dance around the house all the time and I LOVE the dancing shows that are currently popular on network tv. I'm hoping I can convince Ecogeoman to take ballroom with me, instead of me taking something like ballet or hip hop by myself (even though that would be great too).
I am so excited.
Those of you who read this post can call me a hypocrite now.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Blogroll
I finally signed up with Blogrolling and dramatically updated my blogroll in the process (it's much easier than the stupid Blogger list I was using). If you'd like to be included, please let me know.
Edited to add: If you'd like to be removed, please let me know.
Today was the super cool Carpool Buddy's last day at work. How sad. I'll miss her company in the car. In fine showing of her super coolness, she gave me a really lovely thank-you/Christmas gift which was sweet. Not to worry though, I'm sure I"ll see her at many future meetings. Good luck in grad school, Carpool Buddy.
Edited to add: If you'd like to be removed, please let me know.
Today was the super cool Carpool Buddy's last day at work. How sad. I'll miss her company in the car. In fine showing of her super coolness, she gave me a really lovely thank-you/Christmas gift which was sweet. Not to worry though, I'm sure I"ll see her at many future meetings. Good luck in grad school, Carpool Buddy.
Thursday, December 20, 2007
RBOC
- There's just one more day of work before the end-of-year break. I'm thrilled. Because I work mostly at the institution where my main research advisor is rather than the university, I mostly follow their calendar. They shut down the last week of the year, turning off heat and everything. Only employees that need to perform essential work are allowed and they have to be on a list. So, I feel no guilt for taking the whole time between Saturday and Jan 1 off. I might do a little work at home, but only if I feel like it.
- We are going to my hometown on Saturday, in time to see my best friend before she leaves that town to spend Christmas with her family, who live in a different town. I just love seeing her. After that, it will be hard core family time until we leave, probably on the 28th.
- I think Ecogeoman got me a present today. yay! He can be pretty hopeless with gifts (my last birthday was a disaster) but sometimes he comes through brilliantly. I'll be happy as long as there's something because I spent pretty much time and money (well, not that much money) getting nice gifts for him. This is definitely and issue of the time and consideration involved, not the money.
- We had friends over last night which was really fun. I served a bunch of snacks instead of a meal. Today was a potluck at work. I think tonight we'll have the leftovers from last night. Could I possibly eat more cheese and dip? My sodium intake must be through the roof! Not to mention the fat. Mmmmmmm, salt and fat.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Maybe I'll get cooking questions!
Ecogeoman and I watched this lame game show, Duel, for an hour and a half while waiting for an oil change at Honda tonight (an oil change should not take 90 minutes. they did it for free). We typically wouldn't watch that kind of show, but it was what was on the waiting room television. Apparently, two contestants engage in a duel by answering a series of lame trivia questions. The winner chooses the next opponent from a preselected group. The cool thing was that the first 5 or 6 contestants were all women (we did not see the first 3 or 4 play). The first time we saw someone pick a new contestant, she said how she hoped a woman would win so she choose another woman. This new woman won the duel, then picked a man. When it was announced that this man had a "photographic memory" she said, "uh-oh. well, maybe I'll get a cooking question and win!" WTF? A cooking question? She wasn't a professional chef or anything. Can't she just feel confident as a person dueling another person? By this point there were several nauseating women vs men jokes. I don't think I'll be tuning in to Duel again. Not that I would have anyway.
Monday, December 17, 2007
first name basis
It really annoys me how all the presidential candidates are referred to by their last names except Clinton. I know it's partly because it's to "avoid confusion" with her husband, but honestly, are we really in danger of confusing them at this point? Smells of gender bias to me...
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Lets not be mean girls
Last night I watched the movie "Mean Girls" and I really liked it. It was funny but had a good message that didn't dilute the fun into lameness. The movie is about a girl who has been home schooled until age 16, at which point she starts at a wealthy suburban high school. She makes friends with the "art freaks" but infiltrates the group of popular girls. Drama ensues. The screenplay was written by Tina Fey based on the nonfiction, non-narrative book Queen Bees and Wannabes by Rosalind Wiseman.
I watched some of the special features after, including an interview with Wiseman. For years, she ran workshops for parents to help them cope with the social development of their teenagers, and then elaborated upon that experience in her book. She also started something called “The Empower Program” to help both girls and boys prevent and deal with violence in their world. In the interview, Wiseman claims that girls learn social rules from early socialization, but don't fully understand them as adolescents. They are responsible for enforcing those rules among themselves by creating cliques and gossiping. But sometimes girls don't know the rules until they break them and face social consequences for an action they didn’t know was prohibited.
Wiseman explores many perplexing behaviors, like why girls put up with crap from friends and why they pretend they're fat or stupid when they know they aren't. She notes that members of a clique treat each other badly despite putting up a polished, united front to outsiders. Wiseman argues that adolescence shouldn't be a rite of passage that parents expect their kids to endure, but rather is a period when kids learn important things that shape their adult life and so the experience should be as healthy as possible. She wants teenagers to be able to take good risks, like being a mathlete, instead of bad risks, like promiscuous sex.
I think all of this is great and socially healthy teenagers likely develop into better balanced adults, helping the girls become empowered women. But, I couldn’t help but notice the parallels to adult life, especially for women in science (because that’s where my experience lies). For example, the imposter complexes we all seem to have -- why do we say we can’t do top notch science when we know deep down we can? Or, how about when a PI is super friendly to outsiders, but is a jerk to the members of the lab? Or what about the risks involved with not trying a novel, innovative technique in favor of the status quo favored by established scientists, which also poses the risk of slow progress?
Anyway, I hope that the challenges women in science face don’t come from the women themselves. I hope that we aren’t inhibiting ourselves by holding on to some of our teenage whims and insecurities. And I hope that we aren’t establishing rules for women scientists that no one knows until she breaks them, like what constitutes a respectable position, or how much maternity leave it too much, or how much time away from kids is allowable. Because lets not kid ourselves, we do judge each other, if only to establish guidelines for ourselves. I hope that we are mature enough to make our social nature work for us as a group instead of holding us back more.
I watched some of the special features after, including an interview with Wiseman. For years, she ran workshops for parents to help them cope with the social development of their teenagers, and then elaborated upon that experience in her book. She also started something called “The Empower Program” to help both girls and boys prevent and deal with violence in their world. In the interview, Wiseman claims that girls learn social rules from early socialization, but don't fully understand them as adolescents. They are responsible for enforcing those rules among themselves by creating cliques and gossiping. But sometimes girls don't know the rules until they break them and face social consequences for an action they didn’t know was prohibited.
Wiseman explores many perplexing behaviors, like why girls put up with crap from friends and why they pretend they're fat or stupid when they know they aren't. She notes that members of a clique treat each other badly despite putting up a polished, united front to outsiders. Wiseman argues that adolescence shouldn't be a rite of passage that parents expect their kids to endure, but rather is a period when kids learn important things that shape their adult life and so the experience should be as healthy as possible. She wants teenagers to be able to take good risks, like being a mathlete, instead of bad risks, like promiscuous sex.
I think all of this is great and socially healthy teenagers likely develop into better balanced adults, helping the girls become empowered women. But, I couldn’t help but notice the parallels to adult life, especially for women in science (because that’s where my experience lies). For example, the imposter complexes we all seem to have -- why do we say we can’t do top notch science when we know deep down we can? Or, how about when a PI is super friendly to outsiders, but is a jerk to the members of the lab? Or what about the risks involved with not trying a novel, innovative technique in favor of the status quo favored by established scientists, which also poses the risk of slow progress?
Anyway, I hope that the challenges women in science face don’t come from the women themselves. I hope that we aren’t inhibiting ourselves by holding on to some of our teenage whims and insecurities. And I hope that we aren’t establishing rules for women scientists that no one knows until she breaks them, like what constitutes a respectable position, or how much maternity leave it too much, or how much time away from kids is allowable. Because lets not kid ourselves, we do judge each other, if only to establish guidelines for ourselves. I hope that we are mature enough to make our social nature work for us as a group instead of holding us back more.
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Saturday, December 15, 2007
Random Bullets of Meeting: the personal edition
- This meeting was >10,000 people. I prefer smaller meetings because it is so hard to find people at the big ones. There are so many different places people can be that you don't keep running into the same folks again and again and that makes it hard to network. It also makes me think I must be missing something cool when I don't recognize anyone in a session. Where are all the other people like me?
- My talk went fine. I felt very neutral about it, but people told me I did well, including a few who didn't need to say anything. That was nice.
- I didn't wear a skirt. I wore khaki pants the day of my talk and jeans the rest of the time.
- I feel bad for really shy people at meetings. I'm pretty outgoing and I find it challenging to be as socially aggressive as one needs to be to meet people at these things.
- The more experienced I get, the better I am at pacing myself. This meeting was long and intense and I was tired at the end of each day, but not totally overwhelmed like I used to get. Part of this comes from knowing more people so the social pressure is relaxed a little. Another part comes from a flatter learning curve. I still learn new things at meetings, but not as much as I did at the first ones I attended, where everything was new and exciting. The last part comes from not going out at night so much, so I sleep more. I used to be able to stay up drinking past midnight, but now if I do that at all it's only once. This meeting didn't have any of the people I party with anyway.
- I'm glad to be home. I'm pumped to start writing up the data from my talk. But I'm glad to have the weekend off before I have to go to work so I can recover. Also I need to Christmas shop.
Friday, December 14, 2007
Random Bullets of Meeting: the feminists' edition
- There were fewer children at this meeting than at the super casual conference I sometimes attend, but more than at the super stuffy one. I tried to give lots of smiles when I saw people with kids so they would feel like at least some of us think this is a welcome occurrence. There was a conference babysitting service at $7 per hour. If there were ever children in the sessions, I was never disturbed by them.
- I overheard a man with a child in a stroller explaining to another man that people didn't seem to mind his kid at this meeting. He also said that at the last meeting to which he brought the kid (the one with the stuffy old men in blazers), he received many disapproving looks.
- I overheard a woman saying that female convention center staff had been extremely rude to her when she asked where she could pump. She ended up asking a different staff worker, a man, who very courteously led her to the first aid room where she pumped in privacy.
- I went to an all women mixer where I met a few nice people in fields utterly unrelated to mine, but also got to have a lengthy conversation with a few women who are in my field who I had never talked to before. That was great.
- The session my talk was in was organized by two women. Nine of the 11 invited speakers were men. There were also contributed papers (like mine), some of which were given by women. While historically male dominated, my field has many, many more women than most sciences, especially those of the non-biomedical or straight-ecology sort. There are even some women who are senior level, very appropriate candidates for invited talks. I think 2 out of 11 invited talks by women is pretty lousy. Especially for a session organized by women.
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Monday, December 10, 2007
It's not just the wardrobe
On Sunday I wrote how the meetings I attend cover a gradient of formalness in terms of fashion. It seems to be inversely related to the proportion of female attendees. The least fancy meeting has the most women (and children) and so on. Interesting...
Saturday, December 8, 2007
What to wear
Shortly before every meeting I attend, I want to go shopping. I always feel like I don't have anything to wear. It's partly true because I wear jeans and solid color tee shirts to work and don't have much else since I don't often need to dress up. But I also think the desire for new clothes comes from never being sure what is most appropriate for meetings. There was a discussion on someone's blog (FSP's?) a while ago where everybody made fun of how the younger women dress at meetings. I don't want to be the goober they joked about.
I regularly go to the meetings of four societies; three are big (3000-12000 atendees) and one is small (200) (I don't go to all of them every year). They range in formalness, which makes it harder to know what to wear. The small one and one big one are super casual -- many people wear shorts and tie died tee shirts with chacos. One of the big ones is more conservative and usually has crusty old men in university issued blazers and ties. The one I'm going to next week is in the middle. I usually wear jeans, maybe a pair of slacks on the day of my presentation, and the my nicer shirts or sweaters. So like, the least faded and stretched out solid color tee shirts, and maybe even one with a print. I try not to look like a slob, but it's just not me to dress up. I want to make a good impression on folks for the sake of future jobs, but if they depend on my clothes to determine what kind of scientist I am, I would't want to work for them anyway.
But today I bought boots! They are knee-high black suede numbers with flower appliques up the sides. So I packed a skirt, but I'm not sure if I'll wear it because I don't want to look too dressed up and have people think I'm a goober.
This post is intended to just be chit chat. I promise I don't really get stressed out about my conference wordrobe. :)
I regularly go to the meetings of four societies; three are big (3000-12000 atendees) and one is small (200) (I don't go to all of them every year). They range in formalness, which makes it harder to know what to wear. The small one and one big one are super casual -- many people wear shorts and tie died tee shirts with chacos. One of the big ones is more conservative and usually has crusty old men in university issued blazers and ties. The one I'm going to next week is in the middle. I usually wear jeans, maybe a pair of slacks on the day of my presentation, and the my nicer shirts or sweaters. So like, the least faded and stretched out solid color tee shirts, and maybe even one with a print. I try not to look like a slob, but it's just not me to dress up. I want to make a good impression on folks for the sake of future jobs, but if they depend on my clothes to determine what kind of scientist I am, I would't want to work for them anyway.
But today I bought boots! They are knee-high black suede numbers with flower appliques up the sides. So I packed a skirt, but I'm not sure if I'll wear it because I don't want to look too dressed up and have people think I'm a goober.
This post is intended to just be chit chat. I promise I don't really get stressed out about my conference wordrobe. :)
They've hired another woman
One of the technicians in my lab, who is incidentally one of my carpool buddies, is leaving to start grad school in January. I'll be sad to see her go because I really enjoy her company in the car. Her replacement, another woman, is starting next week. That keeps the tally in the group at 3 men and 7 women.
This new person is the first in a very long time, maybe ever, who has been hired without knowing someone in the group. For many complicated reasons, it's difficult to advertise for the super soft money, short term lab positions that arise, so either summer interns stay on for some extra time or someone knows someone who is looking for a bench job. It's like a small scale old boys' network, except the perpetrators aren't boys and the reward is a one to three year technician gig. In this kinda under-the-table talent acquistion system, sometimes a person leaves before a new person can be identified, so process knowledge is lost and training is arduous; people who weren't responsible for the abandoned job have to teach the new person how to do something that they don't know that well themsevles.
I'm glad that they hired someone new before the current person leaves, that she's already been working for several years and not fresh from school, and that she's a woman. I'm looking forward to meeting her when I get back from the conference. I hope she's cool.
This new person is the first in a very long time, maybe ever, who has been hired without knowing someone in the group. For many complicated reasons, it's difficult to advertise for the super soft money, short term lab positions that arise, so either summer interns stay on for some extra time or someone knows someone who is looking for a bench job. It's like a small scale old boys' network, except the perpetrators aren't boys and the reward is a one to three year technician gig. In this kinda under-the-table talent acquistion system, sometimes a person leaves before a new person can be identified, so process knowledge is lost and training is arduous; people who weren't responsible for the abandoned job have to teach the new person how to do something that they don't know that well themsevles.
I'm glad that they hired someone new before the current person leaves, that she's already been working for several years and not fresh from school, and that she's a woman. I'm looking forward to meeting her when I get back from the conference. I hope she's cool.
Friday, December 7, 2007
Almost ready
My talk for the big meeting is pretty much done. Today I went through each slide with my advisor (she's a saint) and now I feel much more confident about it. She made some suggestions, mostly just tweaking things here and there, mostly for the sake of time. We think that I will be really pushing the 15 min time limit.
While I usually get a little nervous about public speaking, I am always more concerned about the content of my presentation than with the act of giving it. Talking to a big group of people can be thrilling if I feel good about what I have to say. I was feeling really anxious earlier this week because I'm scheduled in a session with many big name presenters that I expect to be well attended. I need to be really confident about my talk.
Tomorrow I need to make some changes, then send it to my other advisor. After that, practice, practice, practice. I often get criticized for having too much for people look at, e.g. the judgement on my most recent poster was that it was "congested". So this time, I have very few words on my data slides, which means few reminders of what to say. I wrote out everything I want to say for each slide so I can get really comfortable with all the points I want to make since there will be no extra time for fumbling.
Now that I have my advisor's blessing, I am looking forward to the meeting and maybe even a little excited about giving the talk. Much better than I felt on Tuesday.
While I usually get a little nervous about public speaking, I am always more concerned about the content of my presentation than with the act of giving it. Talking to a big group of people can be thrilling if I feel good about what I have to say. I was feeling really anxious earlier this week because I'm scheduled in a session with many big name presenters that I expect to be well attended. I need to be really confident about my talk.
Tomorrow I need to make some changes, then send it to my other advisor. After that, practice, practice, practice. I often get criticized for having too much for people look at, e.g. the judgement on my most recent poster was that it was "congested". So this time, I have very few words on my data slides, which means few reminders of what to say. I wrote out everything I want to say for each slide so I can get really comfortable with all the points I want to make since there will be no extra time for fumbling.
Now that I have my advisor's blessing, I am looking forward to the meeting and maybe even a little excited about giving the talk. Much better than I felt on Tuesday.
Thursday, December 6, 2007
Binge working
Yesterday, ScienceGirl commented here that, "As a grad student, it is so easy to fall into the procrastinate/work all the time, and never really have guilt-free time." How true. Without a boss who dictates your work hours and monitors your time, it's so easy to procrastinate. Often, the procrastination takes the form of work avoidance, where a less urgent/important task is done first at the expense of something more important but less appealing. Yet, since the important job never got done, there is the lingering weight of Unfinished Work. It's a nasty cycle because you've been working all day but not getting the high priority jobs done, so you have to work more. After many days of not really getting much done, an approaching deadline will trigger many people to really cram the work in. They will pull an all nighter to end up with a less-than-perfect product that they aren't 100% proud of. Binge working. It's so inefficient.
In my struggle to adhere to a 40 hour work week, I have tried to reflect on how I spend my time so that I can feel good about what I do at work and then feel good about what I do at home, which I want to be not work. I have found that when I am really honest with myself about how I spend my day, I see where I waste lots of time*. I know when I'm "working" and when I working, really doing only the things that need to be done and nothing else. No checking google for an image I could kinda use, no playing around with numbers for the heck of it, and certainly no chatting about what I made for dinner last night. Sure, those things can be useful, but should not be done until the essentials are done. That way, I can go home at the end of the day and not feel guilty for relaxing, because I know I got my work done. It's amazing how I will rationalize to myself just like I would to a boss, like, I couldn't get those figures made today because first I had to blah blah blah. Yeah, right. I know what's up with those excuses I give myself. I just wish I could have a touch more self control so a greater proportion of my time at work could be working because man, I really want to graduate.
I suspect that this doesn't end with grad school but that the most successful people typically have good time management skills and thus, greater efficiency. There is a great article on this topic at Science Careers which is really worth a read.
*I only really have this trouble when I am working at my desk on data analysis or writing. I am very efficient at lab work.
In my struggle to adhere to a 40 hour work week, I have tried to reflect on how I spend my time so that I can feel good about what I do at work and then feel good about what I do at home, which I want to be not work. I have found that when I am really honest with myself about how I spend my day, I see where I waste lots of time*. I know when I'm "working" and when I working, really doing only the things that need to be done and nothing else. No checking google for an image I could kinda use, no playing around with numbers for the heck of it, and certainly no chatting about what I made for dinner last night. Sure, those things can be useful, but should not be done until the essentials are done. That way, I can go home at the end of the day and not feel guilty for relaxing, because I know I got my work done. It's amazing how I will rationalize to myself just like I would to a boss, like, I couldn't get those figures made today because first I had to blah blah blah. Yeah, right. I know what's up with those excuses I give myself. I just wish I could have a touch more self control so a greater proportion of my time at work could be working because man, I really want to graduate.
I suspect that this doesn't end with grad school but that the most successful people typically have good time management skills and thus, greater efficiency. There is a great article on this topic at Science Careers which is really worth a read.
*I only really have this trouble when I am working at my desk on data analysis or writing. I am very efficient at lab work.
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Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Carpooling
I live 35 miles from where I usually work. Not so green, huh?
I used to live much closer to work, but it was in a place with few public transit options. Then I became all gaga for ecogeoman and we decided to move in together. Ecogeoman, having only a driver’s licence from Far Off Land and having heard horror stories about frivolous law suites in America, doesn't drive here. Just as well, since he can't really afford a car. There is no (well, very, very limited) access to my workplace via pubic transportation, but ecogeoman's work has great access to public transit. So, we moved to a really wonderful neighborhood from which ecogeoman can either a. get a ride with me b. take public transit or c. ride a bicycle. We figured I had to drive to work no matter what, so living where he could get away with no car made up for my new 35 mile commute that would be 45 minutes in pristine traffic. He was happy, but I was rotting in my car for 1:15 twice a day since traffic is usually lousy.
Then in January, the lab hired a new technician who lives very near to me and doesn't have a car. She began riding with me and after a few months, we added another person. This one has a car so we take turns driving. However, he has to be home at a certain time to relieve his kids’ nanny. At first, I didn't want to get involved with this man because I felt resistant to the responsibility of daycare issues when I don't have kids yet. But, it's well worth it. The nanny’s hours force us to leave early in the morning so we can be back early in the evening, letting us beat the worst of the traffic.
The downside of carpooling is that I can never stretch the day if I'm in the middle of something. If it weren't for the nanny issue, I could ask my carpool buddies to wait 15 min for me to wrap up, but if we're late, the nanny is disgruntled and gets overtime pay. There is no flexibility.
The upsides are many. The commute is much more environmentally friendly, we save money, and I spend less time in traffic than I used to. Interestingly, it has made me more efficient as well. Knowing that I will have to leave at a certain time means I plan my work better and don't goof off as much. I used think I could just stay late if I wanted to surf the web or something, but now staying late is not an option. I have become better at judging what takes 8 hours of work, which has helped me set more realistic goals, at least short term ones. In all, the advent of my carpool was a positive change in my life. I highly recommend it.
I used to live much closer to work, but it was in a place with few public transit options. Then I became all gaga for ecogeoman and we decided to move in together. Ecogeoman, having only a driver’s licence from Far Off Land and having heard horror stories about frivolous law suites in America, doesn't drive here. Just as well, since he can't really afford a car. There is no (well, very, very limited) access to my workplace via pubic transportation, but ecogeoman's work has great access to public transit. So, we moved to a really wonderful neighborhood from which ecogeoman can either a. get a ride with me b. take public transit or c. ride a bicycle. We figured I had to drive to work no matter what, so living where he could get away with no car made up for my new 35 mile commute that would be 45 minutes in pristine traffic. He was happy, but I was rotting in my car for 1:15 twice a day since traffic is usually lousy.
Then in January, the lab hired a new technician who lives very near to me and doesn't have a car. She began riding with me and after a few months, we added another person. This one has a car so we take turns driving. However, he has to be home at a certain time to relieve his kids’ nanny. At first, I didn't want to get involved with this man because I felt resistant to the responsibility of daycare issues when I don't have kids yet. But, it's well worth it. The nanny’s hours force us to leave early in the morning so we can be back early in the evening, letting us beat the worst of the traffic.
The downside of carpooling is that I can never stretch the day if I'm in the middle of something. If it weren't for the nanny issue, I could ask my carpool buddies to wait 15 min for me to wrap up, but if we're late, the nanny is disgruntled and gets overtime pay. There is no flexibility.
The upsides are many. The commute is much more environmentally friendly, we save money, and I spend less time in traffic than I used to. Interestingly, it has made me more efficient as well. Knowing that I will have to leave at a certain time means I plan my work better and don't goof off as much. I used think I could just stay late if I wanted to surf the web or something, but now staying late is not an option. I have become better at judging what takes 8 hours of work, which has helped me set more realistic goals, at least short term ones. In all, the advent of my carpool was a positive change in my life. I highly recommend it.
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
It's definitely winter
The snow is an obvious indication that winter has fully arrived. Unfortunately, I have the listless mood to accompany it. Today was a no carpool day for me because I had to go to the university rather the research institute where I normally work. That meant I could take my time this morning. Knowing no one would be waiting on my doorstep for a ride, I hit the snooze for 45 minutes. When I finally did get up, I couldn't get motivated. I floundered all morning, feeling ashamed that I wasn't eager to write my talk for next week's conference. But it got me thinking about this same time last year when I was preparing an oral presentation for a small local meeting and feeling so down about my work and life in general. That's how I felt this morning. So maybe this mood is seasonal. I'm not usually a depressive person, but right now I'm not interested in anything but snuggling on the couch and reading blogs or watching tv. Or maybe it's because I'm presenting the same damn data I presented at last year's meeting.
I will try to remember this when the time comes to sign up for next December's conference. This is not a good week for me to work hard for a deadline. I just don't care about it.
Things improved when I found out a grad student friend just got a cool job. But that's another post.
Monday, December 3, 2007
The Five Love Languages
Have any of you read The Five Love Languages by Gary Chapman? I’m not really into self help books, but this is one that really resonated with me. The premise of the book is that there are five main ways that people give and receive love and each of us has one that is most important, or our primary love language. The five languages are physical touch, quality time, acts of service, gifts, and words of affirmation.
To determine your primary love language, ask yourself how you knew your mother (or other caregiver) loved you. A response like, “She hugged me” probably means it’s physical touch. “She told me” is likely to indicate words of affirmation. Or “she always packed a note in my lunch for me” could mean acts of service or gifts. Conversely, one may think about what punishment inflicted the most emotional pain. For example, the child who is devastated by being sent to her room probably has quality time as her primary love language. The book talks about how in many relationships, the same primary language is not shared by both parties. In those cases it’s important to learn what each person’s main love language is to keep everyone feeling loved and happy. The book also discusses how when people aren’t receiving the kind of love they need, they don’t feel much love at all. The person giving the love may be perplexed by the lack of recognition shown by the recipient. While giving and receiving love in a perceivable way is absolutely vital in a romantic or parenting relationship, it crosses over to all relationships, even those in a lab.
I wonder if some of our unhappiness in our jobs stems from not getting positive feedback in a form we can perceive. Perhaps some of the friction in lab relationships (and we do spend a lot of time with our labmates!) comes from miscommunication of love. Or maybe not love, but the professional equivalents like appreciation, respect, and gratitude.
Anyway, the book is worth a read. There are several of them actually. I have read the one for raising children and for married couples. The author is a pastor and definitely incorporates Christian ideals and Bible passages, but it’s not too intrusive. I’m not interested in religious teaching at all and I was able to ignore those parts.
To determine your primary love language, ask yourself how you knew your mother (or other caregiver) loved you. A response like, “She hugged me” probably means it’s physical touch. “She told me” is likely to indicate words of affirmation. Or “she always packed a note in my lunch for me” could mean acts of service or gifts. Conversely, one may think about what punishment inflicted the most emotional pain. For example, the child who is devastated by being sent to her room probably has quality time as her primary love language. The book talks about how in many relationships, the same primary language is not shared by both parties. In those cases it’s important to learn what each person’s main love language is to keep everyone feeling loved and happy. The book also discusses how when people aren’t receiving the kind of love they need, they don’t feel much love at all. The person giving the love may be perplexed by the lack of recognition shown by the recipient. While giving and receiving love in a perceivable way is absolutely vital in a romantic or parenting relationship, it crosses over to all relationships, even those in a lab.
I wonder if some of our unhappiness in our jobs stems from not getting positive feedback in a form we can perceive. Perhaps some of the friction in lab relationships (and we do spend a lot of time with our labmates!) comes from miscommunication of love. Or maybe not love, but the professional equivalents like appreciation, respect, and gratitude.
Anyway, the book is worth a read. There are several of them actually. I have read the one for raising children and for married couples. The author is a pastor and definitely incorporates Christian ideals and Bible passages, but it’s not too intrusive. I’m not interested in religious teaching at all and I was able to ignore those parts.
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Sunday, December 2, 2007
7 more facts
- Ecogeofemme detroyed the periodic table, because Ecogeofemme only recognizes the element of surprise.
- Ecogeofemme can do a wheelie on a unicycle.
- Ecogeofemme is so bad she makes viruses sick. As such, ecogeofemme is also responsible for the eradication of smallpox.
- When Ecogeofemme enters a room, she doesn't turn the lights on. She turns the dark off.
- Ecogeofemme crossed the road. No one has ever dared question her motives.
- Ecogeofemme can strangle you with a cordless phone.
- Ecogeofemme can tie her shoes with her feet.
As seen at Thoughts From the Waiting Room
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Saturday, December 1, 2007
I finished something!
I made the final payment on my credit card yesterday. Yay! In January, I made a new year’s resolution to pay it off. It was really hard but I had a plan, stuck with it, and now it’s over. I think it’s the only new year’s resolution I’ve ever kept.
I would describe myself as a saver, not a spender, so suddenly having credit card debt was both shocking and highly uncomfortable to me. I didn’t build the balance by buying a bunch of stuff. First, there was the big first trip to Far Off Land that I couldn’t quite cover up front. Then there were several instances of car maintenance and the deductible for body work after my car was hit while parked. Then an expensive last minute plane ticket for a funeral. All the while, I was still making car payments, so I quickly blew through my paltry emergency fund. That’s how I came to have credit card debt.
I paid off the car last year and now the credit card is paid off too. Finally, I can bask in the joy of completion. Ahhhhhhh.
Too bad my research projects still have months of work left to do.
I would describe myself as a saver, not a spender, so suddenly having credit card debt was both shocking and highly uncomfortable to me. I didn’t build the balance by buying a bunch of stuff. First, there was the big first trip to Far Off Land that I couldn’t quite cover up front. Then there were several instances of car maintenance and the deductible for body work after my car was hit while parked. Then an expensive last minute plane ticket for a funeral. All the while, I was still making car payments, so I quickly blew through my paltry emergency fund. That’s how I came to have credit card debt.
I paid off the car last year and now the credit card is paid off too. Finally, I can bask in the joy of completion. Ahhhhhhh.
Too bad my research projects still have months of work left to do.
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