Not so fast

On Monday, I emailed a draft of another diss chapter to Awesome Technician (AT) and my advisors. AT sent me comments on Tuesday, but I didn't look at them right away. Today when I came in, there was a book on my chair with an unsigned note marking a page saying something like "this might be a good reference for [statement X]" (I had some sentences in the discussion that still needed references). I thought the handwriting was Research Advisor's, and I got super excited that she had read my draft already. There was a problem with my email server this morning, so I couldn't sign in right away to see if she had emailed full comments, but the fact that she had left this book indicated that she had read the draft. I wanted to thank her straight away, but she was in a meeting.

I stopped my AT's office a little later to talk about some lab things, and I mentioned how happy I was that Research Advisor had already read my draft and that I couldn't wait to thank her. AT made this odd face and said, "well, I left a book on your chair. Were there two books?" uuuooooooohh. It wasn't my advisor after all. But AT did make a bunch of really helpful comments, so that's good.

I'm glad that Advisor was in that meeting, because I would have felt like a total jackass if I had barged into her office with a big grin, thanking her for her prompt feedback, and put her in the position of saying that she hadn't done it. That would have been awkward.

Culture shock

So I'm applying for this job in Far Off Land. It's not really what I had in mind, especially for my first position out of grad school, and it's very unlikely that my bid for it will be successful. But still, I'm applying, and I would like for my application to not be laughable.

Since I hadn't really planned on applying for anything other than postdocs at this point, I'm not sure how to prepare a good application. On top of that, I'm noticing some cultural differences that are confusing me. Far Off Land is quite similar to the US overall, but minor differences crop up from time to time. EGM and I note them with interest (or sometimes frustration) and then move on. In other words, the subtle cultural differences haven't really had any impact on my behavior, like how I deal with EGM or his family.

But now with this job thing, I'm confronted with some small things that seem totally weird. For example, they suggest writing your interests and hobbies on your cv. That feels uncomfortable to me, since I haven't seen it before. Where do I write that? What sorts of things are cv-worthy? I don't really have a whole heck of a lot of hobbies -- can I put that I really love watching Lost? Or that I spend much of my free time reading anonymous blogs? I'm guessing they expect the applicants to say how much they love back-country camping or rock climbing or something. I mean, I like camping and all but it's not like it's a major hobby. Another example of things that seem strange to my American sensibilities: you can bring your family along if you get an interview, but you have to write in your cover letter if that is something you plan to do. huh?

So, I have no idea what to write in my cover letter, or how best to structure my cv for a job like this as it is. But now I'm even less confident because of the cultural differences at play. EGM has explained some of the issues, but is equally inexperienced and has been in the US long enough that I don't think he can offer a whole lot of help. It probably doesn't matter anyway since I'm not at all competitive for the job, but I'd still like to put my best foot forward on the application. Also, I guess it's a bit of a lesson in how EGM's background is different from mine, even though we overlook it most of the time.

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One more thing related to this post: the ethernet port thingy on my laptop is messed up, so the ethernet cable won’t stay plugged in. This is a problem that has slowly gotten worse, to the point where today I can’t stay connected without mashing the cable in the plug and holding it there. So frustrating! The only time I really use it is when I'm at the university, which just adds to my university-related annoyance (even though this particular issue is clearly not the fault of the university).

Low hanging fruit

Ecogeoman and I took a day off together on Sunday and it was just great. We slept in, then had lunch at our favorite neighborhood Thai place. Then we drove about 45 min out of the city to go apple picking. The weather was gorgeous, and and it was so relaxing to be out in the sunshine picking fruit away from the bustle of the city. Afterward, we went for a short hike in a nearby nature preserve. Then we came home and baked a pie.

After all that loveliness, I stayed up a bit too late trying to finish the latest book club book. This morning I hit the snooze on the alarm for two hours without realizing it. Then EGM got up and I dozed for another 30-45 min. I don't know what the deal was. I felt kind of achy with a headache and very blah. Thankfully, book club was canceled -- I didn't finish the book and I didn't want to be out late.

It was great to enjoy a day off, especially what was probably the last nice day of the year, but I still felt very stressed today. I need to stay on top of my anxiety so I can keep pressing on at the faster work pace without letting myself get overwhelmed. Only 6-8 weeks until I have to hand over my dissertation to my committee.

I've had enough

I'm not sure, but I think I'm on the cusp of a minor burnout episode. And I'm sick and tired of a bunch of work-related things in my life:

• My laptop is totally falling apart. The battery has been shit for quite some time, i.e. only lasting about 20 min before I have to plug in. It's too slow for streaming video. The hinge has been slowly crumbling, and now it doesn't always stay open right. Last night, it flopped shut as I was leaning forward to put it on the coffee table, which resulted in it nailing my lip and making it bleed. When your computer punches you, it's time for a new one. I'm not excited about shelling out for a new computer right now, but I did get this one in 2003, so I guess I should feel too bad about it.
• I'm sick of the disorganization that seems to permeate my university. Can't say much more about that here.
• I have to redo some work because of said disorganization. It's not anyone's fault really, but it still sucks. The work won't take all that long to redo (less than a day) but I thought it was done and now it's not. That's demoralizing.
• The stress associated with the uncertainty of graduating and finding two jobs together is unpleasant.

I've been working way more hours than I normally do, since like, May. Then I kicked it up another notch a few weeks ago. I feel like I should be working all the time since my time to defense is seriously dwindling. But I think I need a break. So tonight I'm going to relax by turning off the computer and watching tv tonight without distraction*. And EGM and I are going to take a full day off this weekend and do something fun together, maybe get out of the city. I think I need it. Actually, we both need it.

* although, there's a conflict. Should I watch the two-hour Grey's Anatomy or cut out early from that to watch The Mentalist? Maybe I'll switch over if Izzie doesn't die. I'm totally sick of Izzie...I just checked the ABC website and it looks like George dies, not Izzie. The Mentalist it is!

The psychology of bedtime

Can someone explain to me why I don't want to go to bed at night? Even when I'm nodding off on the couch? And then desperately want to stay in bed longer in the morning?

Seriously, every single morning I get up and say, I'm totally going to bed earlier tonight. And then I stay up late doing all manner of lame-ass bullshit. Lately this game has been holding me hostage on the couch when I really want to go to bed. Is there any more stupid way to be spending my time? Even my down-time could be more satisfying if I did something else. I feel like a kid who will do anything to stall going to bed. Yet I would very much like more sleep.

Anyway, it seems like lots of people have this problem. I've blogged about it before, and know some of you have too. What makes us do it? Why don't we just go to bed already?

Random bullets of barbecue beef steak stew

• Apparently Ecogeoman has the series of words, "barbecue beef steak stew" stuck in his head, along with "love fish", which we often call each other. I hate getting words stuck in my head. It's worse than having a song on repeat up there.
• Do you think that if I become a famous scientist, they will cast me in Dancing with the Stars?
• I taught myself a new statistical technique last week, but I was using some non-standard software, and I wasn't totally sure I was doing it right/meeting all the assumptions. Today someone who is expert at this technique generously spent a couple of hours teaching me the appropriate program and how to manipulate the data. It confirmed that I pretty much understood what I had learned on my own, and enhanced my understanding dramatically.
• There are two jobs advertised at a university in Far Off Land: one in my field and one in EGM's area. It is stunning that there is a job available for each of us at the same time at the same place, especially in FOL. They are at a level somewhat above our experience, so I think it's a long shot, but we have to apply. I wish applying for my first real job didn't coincide with the hot-and-heavy writing of my diss.