This is the view out our front window right now. Sigh... Despite its beauty, I don't like snow. My mom has something of a phobia about driving in snow or ice. When I was a teenager and we had a snow day, not only did she not allow me to go anywhere, but my friends were not allowed to come to our house either because she didn't want anyone on the road. Now we tease her by calling snow the "white death". It kind of ruined snow for me forever.The snow is an obvious indication that winter has fully arrived. Unfortunately, I have the listless mood to accompany it. Today was a no carpool day for me because I had to go to the university rather the research institute where I normally work. That meant I could take my time this morning. Knowing no one would be waiting on my doorstep for a ride, I hit the snooze for 45 minutes. When I finally did get up, I couldn't get motivated. I floundered all morning, feeling ashamed that I wasn't eager to write my talk for next week's conference. But it got me thinking about this same time last year when I was preparing an oral presentation for a small local meeting and feeling so down about my work and life in general. That's how I felt this morning. So maybe this mood is seasonal. I'm not usually a depressive person, but right now I'm not interested in anything but snuggling on the couch and reading blogs or watching tv. Or maybe it's because I'm presenting the same damn data I presented at last year's meeting.
I will try to remember this when the time comes to sign up for next December's conference. This is not a good week for me to work hard for a deadline. I just don't care about it.
Things improved when I found out a grad student friend just got a cool job. But that's another post.
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I saw snow for the first time the first winter I was in my current city. I thought it was amazing! Until the morning I walked out to the parking lot, completely wiped out on a sheet of ice, and discovered my car encased in an inch of ice....
That reminds me that I'll need to leave extra time to scrape my car in the morning. poo.
The snow is great for about five minutes, then it just complicates everything.
Ugh. I remember how depressing winter in the midwest can be. I think it's to make up for the fact that no one does fall better than the midwest. :)
I went through a rare depressive and lethargic phase a couple of weeks ago too - I was sick and the darkness was getting to me. I hope you come through it like I did. In my case, the snow actually helped my mood, but for you it will be something else. The best thing to do is to keep doing the things you usually enjoy, even if you don't feel like it. Spending time with friends is especially helpful. Hang on in there!
Awww...you shouldn't let your mom's paranoia affect your opinion of snow. Go out and make snow angels! It could be winter that's affecting your mood although it's a little early in the season for that...usually it gets people in jan or feb.
Wayfarer, I thought of what a whiner I would sound like when the likes of you read this post. Our 4 inches of snow is nothing like what you have described so far this winter. Still, snow angels are utterly unappealing.
As for the winter blues, it seems like the days get short so suddenly in december. Sunrise/sunset must correspond to my work hours or something.
Cae, that's good advice.
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